11/12/06

Today it was quite a sad day as I sat for my EID common test and I don’t do very well. But I won’t give up as I still have 3 more paper to go so the rest I must do well. Haha 1 more months to go and my best friend getting marry and I am his best man so happy but I don’t think I can drink woa next day sure kanna headache 1 how. I think I should me taking 2 day off scare next day cannot work.

This few weeks I keep having flash back about me and Wan Ying having those times. But why? I am trying my best to forget her as I think she has forgotten about me le. Where she is busy with her CCA and school project plus her friends or maybe her new boyfriend? I don’t know whether should I message her see if she is fine or not and see how’s she is doing now I wonder? I wan to move on but why this flash back keep finding me is it that I still love her or because I felt guilty as I hurt her a lot.

I know I won’t give a girl happiness as I am the guy who don’t really know how the girl think? I really wan to have 1 permanent girlfriend who I will spend the rest of my life with her as my wife. But at the moment I need to concentrate on my studies and my work earning money is the 1st priories the rest I think it will come out naturally I think haha good night. Miss you wanying