27/09/06 time 11pm
I had a very painful 1 hour. I just went out to meet a girl who I meet her in the internet. We have been chat for a few weeks le and she agrees to meet me. But when we meet together with her friends, is like she seldom talks to me. Her friends are very funny and playful. This is what secondary students will do. Haha, after meeting her and her friends I went home. At about 1030 I saw her online so I ask her how she felt about me. She told me that she felt only friendship that’s all nothing more. Haha I think I siao liao, keep laughing. I am going crazy le. That hurts when she says that I thought she can be my next girlfriend but I thought wrong as she is 8 yrs younger than me haha. How can an 8 yrs younger than me girl will like me. She can treat me as an old man le. Haha…. Yesterday my parents got a fight and I cried when I saw it. Now this I cried when a girl to me that she can’t see any future in me. Haha… I am a weakling a guy who cried. I think I can not call myself a guy or a man as guys and men don’t cry from this matter. I am a piece of shit. Nothing more than a shit, I couldn’t help my family in financial problems as I am studying. I couldn’t get into relationship as girls thinks that I only can be their friend. In good word they will say “I don’t want to lost and good friend like me” but I think this means if I ask her out she may think whether to go or not to go that’s all. She won’t say when and what time met as soon as she heard what I ask. I got too many rejects and keep telling me that I will find a better 1 next time and next time I will not rush to get a relationship as I will fail if I rush. But I think now even if I don’t rush it too will fail. So I think I will better hide myself in a shell call useless piece of shit. And plans to continue what I have made to myself for my future.
Today I had a double painful impact haha… that will leave a scar in my heart and on my body.. haha…. I am going crazy soon…………… hahahaha..hahahaha…hahahaha….
My best friend just scolded me for not waking up my mind now he has given up on me haha… my one and only best friend given up on me le haha I am really useless piece of FUCKING SHIT!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA………………………….
I had a very painful 1 hour. I just went out to meet a girl who I meet her in the internet. We have been chat for a few weeks le and she agrees to meet me. But when we meet together with her friends, is like she seldom talks to me. Her friends are very funny and playful. This is what secondary students will do. Haha, after meeting her and her friends I went home. At about 1030 I saw her online so I ask her how she felt about me. She told me that she felt only friendship that’s all nothing more. Haha I think I siao liao, keep laughing. I am going crazy le. That hurts when she says that I thought she can be my next girlfriend but I thought wrong as she is 8 yrs younger than me haha. How can an 8 yrs younger than me girl will like me. She can treat me as an old man le. Haha…. Yesterday my parents got a fight and I cried when I saw it. Now this I cried when a girl to me that she can’t see any future in me. Haha… I am a weakling a guy who cried. I think I can not call myself a guy or a man as guys and men don’t cry from this matter. I am a piece of shit. Nothing more than a shit, I couldn’t help my family in financial problems as I am studying. I couldn’t get into relationship as girls thinks that I only can be their friend. In good word they will say “I don’t want to lost and good friend like me” but I think this means if I ask her out she may think whether to go or not to go that’s all. She won’t say when and what time met as soon as she heard what I ask. I got too many rejects and keep telling me that I will find a better 1 next time and next time I will not rush to get a relationship as I will fail if I rush. But I think now even if I don’t rush it too will fail. So I think I will better hide myself in a shell call useless piece of shit. And plans to continue what I have made to myself for my future.
Today I had a double painful impact haha… that will leave a scar in my heart and on my body.. haha…. I am going crazy soon…………… hahahaha..hahahaha…hahahaha….
My best friend just scolded me for not waking up my mind now he has given up on me haha… my one and only best friend given up on me le haha I am really useless piece of FUCKING SHIT!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA………………………….
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