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Long time didn’t update my blog… I think about a month or so… have stomachache virus this few weeks. Ever since last week I had this feeling and had been in and out of the clinic twice in a week. Then finding very hard to control my emotions, as I don’t know whether Lynn still like me or not and keep having flash back of my ex girl friend WanYing. Why I keep having these in and out emotions? Quite painful feelings, WanYing I broke up with her is because I have no confidence in myself and keep having these dirty thoughts that’s why I broke up with her, then Lynn is she told me she had feelings for me so I was very happy about it but after she told me she has this incurable disease pass down from her mother then she started to be so cold to me. I was very confuse by her did cried a few times.

I don’t know what happen and what have I been turn into? Become a desperate guy wanting to be love and become a zhai nan 宅男. Sad this means I have no life whatsoever, no choice I think as I wanted to go out most of my friends not free then want to go oversea for some fun like only me the only one wanting to go…. And them well they rather go with their friends then me asking them to go… surely no life type.