sad

got 1 of my result today its doesnt seem tat i lik the result 68 over 100 quite bad tat mean i take 20% is abt 58.8 mark sad i still have to work even more harder so tat i can get a 70 o and 80 to pass the subject hope tat if the teacher give my maths result 2ml i hope i can a better grades coz when cums to common test i often fail the cums to exam i pass why cant i get both pass so tat i can get even better results in my final cert.

oh man i hope i pass i hope i hope!... juz nw i went out for my dinner with my best friend jia he and we went to the comic shop 2 buy our comic actually i oso wan to get the gal who is working in the shop her no. but when i saw her well my face bcum hot and my body wont listen to me it keep walking away from her ah......... help hw cum i have no guts to ask her no and her name ah...........

jiahe keep helping me but why cant i go and ask her why??? sigh :-[ 2ml i must get her no. hope she will give ah cant i have to go cut hair sad thursday i will yes thursday i will can any one give me some car rage so that i can get her no and i will nt be worry abt my future tat i dont have a gf a wife ( if i can manage to be with her) ZHIYONG grow up u are nt a kid anymore must be brave and face ur future ok i will....

i WILL do it after i cut my hair be more handsome eeeeee..... peh hel bie ha ha ha dont care i must brin my balls and ask her no then when got her no ask her out but 1st talk to her more find out more abt her then ask her out can any 1 help me hw to woo a gal who can teach me help!!!

happy and angry

today my common test paper was very EZ (yi pian dian gau) ha ha ha after the test, i and 2 of my friends went to suntec to c the comex 2004 there got free games to play x box game to play ha ha ha fun and we went to c the others things got a lot of things got chio bu, got cam, got laptop, got many other things and best i got myself a new 4 in 1 printer can print can scan can photocopy ha ha ha ha ha ha..... damn happy.

then when i reach hm i read my friend Yanting's diary well these few day i think she change a lot change more to an ah lian liao coz bco of 1 aunty tat nvr return her $10 change she go and ask for it everyday but the aunty oso so subbon juz return the $10 change and nothing will hapen liao lor but why cant they settle lik tis why they have to make ting worst jus lik yester day the library thing why humans cant settle things in the rite way why they always lik to go violents acting lik animals.

animals fight to stay alive then why human fight they dont need to fight they still can live wat why they wan to fight we humans are smart animals we use our brains wat lik animals so why can we us our brains to settle our probelms rather then use hand and leg o even shouting at each other... dont understand.

Yan ting i noe u are angry bcoz i say u r turning into an ah lian liao i am sorry but i am trying to help u find a way to solve tis problem with out both of u and the aunty get hurt in the future ok i too angry when someone take my money and nvr return.

i happens to me in the past lucky u are someone u dont noe but for me is tat friend is my best friend he betray me and wat did i do nthing why coz i cant find him liao he juz disappear and from tat day onward i dont treats my friends liao coz i noe if i lent them money i noe i would get it bck i noe u too will do the same and i dont lik to ask for it it makes them wan to avoide me more i oready noe friends liao nw still got 1 or 2 friend i wan to keep them dont wan to let them go away if i really ask them i will have no friends to go out o chat with liao only 4 walls to talk to..
believe it o nt its true.. i noe u wouldnt believe coz lik m i dont believe u nvr change u oso scare of me well i lik to say those things but sometime i'm really tired of lenting money to ppl liao makes me feel lik i print money 1.

do u noe hw hard to earn money and hw hard to save money i noe u do but i oso noe u dont really noe hw hard earning money is for me i work in the sports company as an sales assiants and i had a bck injury which goin to make me half paralsy but i still work climbing up and down do u noe tat i 1s falls down from a ladder an hit my bck the time i couldnt even feel my leg do u noe hw painful it wasbut i still bare the pain and tears jus flows in my heart with smiliing at my customer with an at the tude problems. noe one knows no 1 cares why i look for a gf its bcoz i wan someone really cares for me and for me to care with.

i noe u will say my parents care well yes but when i talk abt my problems juz lik pretending they are listening but they are nt i can c frm their eyes so nw do u noe hw i feel why i so rush abt getting a gf u dont i knew it forget it if u really dont wan to make friends with me then its fine i dont wan a friends who hates me and scare of me.

study again sigh....

today whole day studying DCCA but nting goes in side my brain help and ended up watching garfield the movie ha ha ha damn funny must watch it on the 2 september tis yr ok...

nthing have to say but YANTING hw are u feelin nw much better and Laine oso feeling better do take care ok and does anybody seen FACE the korean horrior movie yet do tell me worth watch it o nt

nearly got in to fight

tis morining when me and my friends were in the library we nearly got in to a fight with some one who is share our project rm... reason behind tis is they say tat we are too noisey but we were really nosiey its nt our fault coz the rm is we cum 1st so we have the rites and oso he nvr say he got friends cuming oso the reason we bk the rm is becoz we got a big group of friends studying together then they lik nt very happy they say the librarian to talk to ask bt ended up he and his friends wan to fight i dont mind fighting but i scare is to be kick out of sch and they started it if they really hit my friend well i can say the chair will be flying towards them lor even tro i got material art background but so wat.

cums to real fight we will be anyhow throwing punches at them liao lor. why guy cums to things they cant handle they will start to think of fighting why why cant they juz talk things out and find the best way to solve the problems nowadays gal oso act lik boys liao they oso will fight when cums to things they cant handle. wat has this world cums to 1st there were gays then lesbians ( no offence) then nw gals act lik boys cant settle things then will think of fighting siao man. i finally finish the 2 past yr paper i think i am ready for 2ml's DE paper then prepare for the 3nd and the last paper for the term DCCA hope tml's paper will be EZ adnsame goes for the paper on sat the i can go to work after the paper on sat ha ha ha finally i can go bck to work liao so happy got money liao ha ha ha

my character

well i read an horoscope tis morning telling a bt my character aa.. AA... i am a shy person who stay at hme most of the time (quite true but i lik to go out oso but cant get any one out) helpful, caring person in relationship very true and loyal to the one he/she love take care of other 1st then thing of himself/ herself last (very true) kind hearted, cheerful, when cums to important matters he will be very willing to help out and finish the matters quickly patient person. well tis is wat the book wrote

SUNDAY

whole day nting to do only watch olimpics actually i wan to go expo to c the sale coz there got JL sale and SAFE superstore sales got a lot of discount but my friends not free my best friend working so i staied at hm watching tv and doin some sit up and push up. i only do 20 for both then i tried liao ha ha ha.... nthing much happen nvr go out nvr chat with friends juz sit there watching tv no working oso coz got test and i nvr study coz no mood..

wan to chat with yanting well no use she will be chatting wit her bf o goin out. she only find me when she had a problem... sian......! sigh............ my life is such a bore no life wan to noe a gal in the internet ended up she's a lesbian but she dont mind me to chat with her...... dont noe wat to say liao well that i wan to say of my day nw i wan to tell yantng do take care for urself i nw getting a bit of worried abt u ok better take care even tro u dont lik me i still care for u i noe u wouldnt noe hw much coz u nvr care abt me lik all my friends do i get use to oready tats y i dont ask u out any more so as my friends.

hi

sad yesterday i got sum mum for downloading moive from internet sad $500 fly away liao including my phone bills and internet bills :_( wat will i do and where do i get the money to pay for in total around $600++ help help help me. today nthing much happen but i saw a china gal very cute i lik her but only lik i dont have the guts to ask her no but i got a chance to ask her to help me with 2 problem sums i and my friends couldnt solve it so i alone by myself ask her to her c her the way she think to solve the problems very cute but she is frm china and her english well nt very gd nvm my chinese not gd oso ha ha ha i can help her in the english and she can help me with the chinese ha ha ha.. but still i didnt get her no. and her name sigh....

yanting well dont worry abt ur bf i think he will be calling u 2nite and say sorry to u haha ha (sorry) not man to laugh at u juz wan to make u happy if he really didnt call u cum find me i will lent u my shoulder to dry ur tears on even tor i nt there with u and i wouldnt wan to mit me i will lent my ling won to u ok jus to let u noe i will be at ur side helpin u all along even tro i am transparent to u but when u are having problems u will be able to c me ok.

pls i am nt a ghost ok. ha ha tats rite smile like tis the sun will shine on u again remember the sun o the spot light will always shine on u whenever o wherever u are but if u r sad the sun will be cover wit dark clouds and dont worry i will always cover u with my warm umbrella o my body o my shirt to keep u dry and warm.

study hard play hard hope someday u can play music to me ha ha o go out with me ha ha

now is 2215pm dame anrgy today in the afternoon i wan having a short break from my study i go start to play computer game s i was juz started to play a teacher came in and ask me and my friend to show him our student pass f**k juz started to take a break he came in then he gave ur a warning letter wat kind of teacher is he cant he let us go 1 time coz its not a bad thing to do wat other ppl eat in the library he nvr catch why he catch us f**k him.

last nite i had a dream a bad dream, i dream i help my friend yanting to find a job and i found 1 at parkway parade selling VCD at a shop name POH KIM well it's my ex gf's work place. well 1st i waited for her at the bus stop so tat i can bring her to the shop then yanting call and tell me she's nt goi but she ask me to fill up for her.

then ok i help her to fill up nxt ting i ask her for her address u cant fill up the form with out ur address rite then she say can let tat alone i say cant must fill up. after tat she told me she dont wan to work liao i started to get angry coz 1st she put me aeoplane then say she help her to fill up the form nxt she say she dont wan liao is she playing with me. and i start to scold her is she playinf with me and my ex ask me to clam down hw do i come down where almost all my friend are lik tat in really life yes all my friends are lik tat but in dreams oso wat. after i scold her i hang up her phone coz i was so angry from ang mo kio to parkway parade wao so far and i am willing to help a friend then ended up putting me air plane wat.

i think tis dream tells me not to make friends any more coz the more i make the more friends will put me air plane and the more hurts it gets.... i think i am nothing to all my friends. all of my friends can make gd friends me well my i make gd friends who lik to put very beautiful air plane, they can get gf me well i didnt get any chance of getting 1 all that i try to make friends with they reject me to be their bf some say i am a nice guy as i am not then some say i was too fast and scare them do u noe why i wan it fast is bcoz i dont them to reject me by saying i too nice o a nice guy as i am not ok if i am a nice guy the gals that i have asked they will agree to be my gf and not reject me....

dont say liao the more i say the more i feel angry and at the same time sad i did wan to change and need some one too give me chance but no 1 will.....

good morining

hi tis is yes 933 ur 1st mediacorp radio statiton of ur choice tis is zhiyong i am cuming live at ngee ann poly ha ha. now time is 847 am tis morining i woke up at abt 7 am then get goin to sch to get a best room. ha ha ha kiasu rite well bcoz i need to get the best rm also the biggest rm ha ha.

no sch day today

today i woke up abt 1130am. then i get ready to go ut for a jog and do some exerise to keep my body in shape actually i cant do much of the exerise bcoz i got a back injury during my army days.. wat the heck i still do ha ha i did c anyone oround in the park bcoz its a weekday and oso its afternoon where got ppl go joggin during afternoon accept me ha haha..

after the exerise i went back hm to bath but half way back my back starts to hurt so i quicky find a place to sit and rest my back for a while... this is the 1st time my back hurt badly i alomost cried my tears were oready at my eye lid but it nvr flows down pain lots of pain... then after abt 20 mins later i felt much better theni got up and head hm reach hm i take a shower and change a new pair of unde..

quite refresh specially when my back stops to hurt ha haha... i dont lik to tell my family abt my back coz i dont wan them to noe tat the pain sometimes keep bothering me.... i dont wan them to worry abt me as i have oready grown up i am 23 u noe must really have to think and do act like a baby when cums to this kind of pain.... nw time is 19.40pm and my back still hurt a little compare to tis afternoon.... oh and i have juz competed chapter 2 of the game call sword and blade quite a nice game but having problems in chapter 3 ha ha....dont worry i will compete in no time.....

as for yanting if u really in need of money try asking ur parents and i dont think the job u are working for ur teacher really earns a lot i try to ask my friend who is working at poh kim vcd shop at centary square c wherther she can help u ont... and i have say a lot of time try to save as much as possible u noe tat ur bills are lik mount everest very high up 1 so u better start to save here and there juz buy wat u need n not wat u wan wait if there is an emergency hw u have no money then hw lik me my family o my relative often hw tis kind of last min emergency cases tats why i can use the money to hep them but too bad is every time i wan to buy the things i wan the emergency cases came and end up nt buy anything.

study again

SIGH...... today i still go sch to stduy but i cant really study much coz i went to a coner of the library where there is nt much signal for my computer to use coz i am using wireless internet so tats why the whole day we all juz touch a bit of here and there then spent most of then time playing games and downloading funny clips from the movie WU JIAN DAU very funny clips.

at abt 3 we start packing up and leave the library to head hm on the bus i saw an ACS or ADS student i forgot but the sch is at dover rd in front of dover ITE and opp is the ACJC. well the boy is very stupid and funny he was sitting near the stairs of the double decker bus.... ha he he..... he fell aslp and his body was like moving here and there then he lene to his left where the stairs was then i had an funny and evil tot i hope he falls down and all the way to the lower deck ha he he... but he didnt then he nearly hit his head at the back of the sit where he is sitting i hope he really hit his head then i can laugh untill i stomach camp but he didnt.

after a while an aunty ask him to sit inside abit of the sit so that he wont fall, so he did n nxt thng i noe is tat he really hit his head at the window and i abt to laugh but i try to control till i get down frm the bus then reach hm then i start to laugh loudly my nxt door neigbour's grand daugther ask me why am i laughing i told i was laughing at the cartoon which i was watching but i was really laughing at the ADS sch boy it bad to laugh at some1's bu xin but i cant help it then i ask myself i tot all privite sch o those RGS or RI or whichever the most popular sch are are very smart ppl but i was wrong i saw 1 which is nt haha ha ha ha! i think i am mad but i juz cant help myself ha haha....

study study study must study

today as usual go sch early in the morning lik normal sch day but onli thing is this week is sch holiday and i hav to go sch to study why bcoz nxt week is my common test so i have to study hard but if i get a gd results then for the exams i dont need to stress to much to get better results.

well nthing much happen juz that i cant really noe hw to solve boolean theorm and K map. lucky is tat i can manage to do other topic maybe i can score frm the topic tat i noe ha ha ha.... sigh.. really nthing much happen...

i finish ready my friend yanting's blog well i am happy for her tat she got a caring father and a bf she's very luck to have a bf and frm her blog she must be very happy her bf oso very luck coz he can be the 1st one to eat her cooking but its onli instance noodle but yanting dont eat too much instance noodle coz it can make u fat and make ur hair drop ok i wish i am ur bf can try ur cooking well i dont reall noe hw to cook noodle but i noe hw to cook other things coz i came to noe a small chef frm some restuant he teach me a lot of things abt cooking my italy noodle is he teach me 1 but till now none of my friends try b4 but htey they my salad and they lik it .

well yanting i wish u all the best for ur new beginning of a beautiful relationship and ur new beginning better nt make u cry o i will go find him for some trouble ok now i tink i will stop almost here yanting (tingting) i noe i am the person when u need help u will look for me and when nthing happen u wont find me so i wish u all the best again and i say 1s forget abt me coz i me cant help you any more but if u really wan to chat u can find me i hope coz i nt really ur friend i can say i am ur worst nightmare u onli cum find me when u really having nightmare and i will company u tro out the way... BYE well this is the 1st time i say gd bye to a friend that i lik very much and will nvr get to contact her anymore coz nw when she having problems she will find him rather then me... ha ha................ :(

study study study must study

today as usual go sch early in the morning lik normal sch day but onli thing is this week is sch holiday and i hav to go sch to study why bcoz nxt week is my common test so i have to study hard but if i get a gd results then for the exams i dont need to stress to much to get better results.

well nthing much happen juz that i cant really noe hw to solve boolean theorm and K map. lucky is tat i can manage to do other topic maybe i can score frm the topic tat i noe ha ha ha.... sigh.. really nthing much happen...

i finish ready my friend yanting's blog well i am happy for her tat she got a caring father and a bf she's very luck to have a bf and frm her blog she must be very happy her bf oso very luck coz he can be the 1st one to eat her cooking but its onli instance noodle but yanting dont eat too much instance noodle coz it can make u fat and make ur hair drop ok i wish i am ur bf can try ur cooking well i dont reall noe hw to cook noodle but i noe hw to cook other things coz i came to noe a small chef frm some restuant he teach me a lot of things abt cooking my italy noodle is he teach me 1 but till now none of my friends try b4 but htey they my salad and they lik it .

well yanting i wish u all the best for ur new beginning of a beautiful relationship and ur new beginning better nt make u cry o i will go find him for some trouble ok now i tink i will stop almost here yanting (tingting) i noe i am the person when u need help u will look for me and when nthing happen u wont find me so i wish u all the best again and i say 1s forget abt me coz i me cant help you any more but if u really wan to chat u can find me i hope coz i nt really ur friend i can say i am ur worst nightmare u onli cum find me when u really having nightmare and i will company u tro out the way... BYE well this is the 1st time i say gd bye to a friend that i lik very much and will nvr get to contact her anymore coz nw when she having problems she will find him rather then me... ha ha................ :(

study study study must study

today as usual go sch early in the morning lik normal sch day but onli thing is this week is sch holiday and i hav to go sch to study why bcoz nxt week is my common test so i have to study hard but if i get a gd results then for the exams i dont need to stress to much to get better results.

well nthing much happen juz that i cant really noe hw to solve boolean theorm and K map. lucky is tat i can manage to do other topic maybe i can score frm the topic tat i noe ha ha ha.... sigh.. really nthing much happen...

i finish ready my friend yanting's blog well i am happy for her tat she got a caring father and a bf she's very luck to have a bf and frm her blog she must be very happy her bf oso very luck coz he can be the 1st one to eat her cooking but its onli instance noodle but yanting dont eat too much instance noodle coz it can make u fat and make ur hair drop ok i wish i am ur bf can try ur cooking well i dont reall noe hw to cook noodle but i noe hw to cook other things coz i came to noe a small chef frm some restuant he teach me a lot of things abt cooking my italy noodle is he teach me 1 but till now none of my friends try b4 but htey they my salad and they lik it .

well yanting i wish u all the best for ur new beginning of a beautiful relationship and ur new beginning better nt make u cry o i will go find him for some trouble ok now i tink i will stop almost here yanting (tingting) i noe i am the person when u need help u will look for me and when nthing happen u wont find me so i wish u all the best again and i say 1s forget abt me coz i me cant help you any more but if u really wan to chat u can find me i hope coz i nt really ur friend i can say i am ur worst nightmare u onli cum find me when u really having nightmare and i will company u tro out the way... BYE well this is the 1st time i say gd bye to a friend that i lik very much and will nvr get to contact her anymore coz nw when she having problems she will find him rather then me... ha ha................ :(

study study study must study

today as usual go sch early in the morning lik normal sch day but onli thing is this week is sch holiday and i hav to go sch to study why bcoz nxt week is my common test so i have to study hard but if i get a gd results then for the exams i dont need to stress to much to get better results.

well nthing much happen juz that i cant really noe hw to solve boolean theorm and K map. lucky is tat i can manage to do other topic maybe i can score frm the topic tat i noe ha ha ha.... sigh.. really nthing much happen...

i finish ready my friend yanting's blog well i am happy for her tat she got a caring father and a bf she's very luck to have a bf and frm her blog she must be very happy her bf oso very luck coz he can be the 1st one to eat her cooking but its onli instance noodle but yanting dont eat too much instance noodle coz it can make u fat and make ur hair drop ok i wish i am ur bf can try ur cooking well i dont reall noe hw to cook noodle but i noe hw to cook other things coz i came to noe a small chef frm some restuant he teach me a lot of things abt cooking my italy noodle is he teach me 1 but till now none of my friends try b4 but htey they my salad and they lik it .

well yanting i wish u all the best for ur new beginning of a beautiful relationship and ur new beginning better nt make u cry o i will go find him for some trouble ok now i tink i will stop almost here yanting (tingting) i noe i am the person when u need help u will look for me and when nthing happen u wont find me so i wish u all the best again and i say 1s forget abt me coz i me cant help you any more but if u really wan to chat u can find me i hope coz i nt really ur friend i can say i am ur worst nightmare u onli cum find me when u really having nightmare and i will company u tro out the way... BYE well this is the 1st time i say gd bye to a friend that i lik very much and will nvr get to contact her anymore coz nw when she having problems she will find him rather then me... ha ha................ :(

hw foolish i am

wat am i wat am i doing why am i helping a gal to pay her bills and nt get a chance to c her, mit her? and i still wan to contact her why an i doing tis foolish ting?

in the past i came to noe a gals her name is serene she's a hardworking gals, but came in a poor family with a poor health body every nw and then falls sick. so i say i will help her in which ever way i can to help her all i wan is to mit her for meals or go out mit her at her hse downstairs these thing is it so hard to do meh. in total i lent her over $2000 and i nvr ask her to return me bck. so i tell myself not to lent her any more money if i lent her she will keep cuming bck to me for more money. last week she msg me again and ask me to lent her money for some count case so i lie to her saying i am in jail cant go out frm then she nvr msg me.

nw cums these gal she cums frm and average family but no money to pay her bills this is the second time i am paying for her i like her very much but she scare of me. dont noe why all other friends she nt scare only me she scare. i am evil even thor i wan to be but i cant so why she scare of me why. i noe i say a lot of things but i like to say these thing only thing is i dont really like to do it i juz wan to find some ting to talk to her and noe her more why cant i lik other ppl who they can get friends to go out enjoy make new friends get a girlfriend why cant i be like other normal ppl why all my friends dont lik to go out with me dont like to talk to me.

these thing my family doesnt noe abt coz i dont wan to let them worry abt me. i wish i will have friends who really go out with me, someday my the other half wil come but these someday wont cum. all my friends all ask me why i so long nvr get a girlfriend and say do i noe hw old am i if i still didnt get a girlfriend o some1 iwont be able to start a family by age of 30 old even older. do u noe wat i told them, i told them why cant u all intro 1 to me then i will have a girlfriend nw they all juz keep quiet coz they still remember wat had happen in the past where i and with my girlfriend.

that's why they dont intro to me i respect them coz they dont wan me to hurt the gal. i guess i am the only 1 who is not moving and everyone is in front of me moving further and further away from me. i wan to move on is that i had no one the give me strenght to move i am not the person that can move by it self i am lik a toy car who need battery to move and that battery is love but that battery never cum juz lik when u tired of playing this toy u juz take out the battery and put in a new toy then throw me in the corner where n o1 will find or notice it.

can any one give me a chance to move i dont wan to be left alone in the dark

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAA......................................................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can any 1 help me i am despar now i need a gal to eas my pain can any one help me./...................................................................... i dont noe wat to say but i am now crying who will understand my feelings who can help me with my problems juz lik when they needed my help who

wat am i to you tell me

tell me wat am i to you? you need me you call me then when u dont need me you juz throw me 1 side tell me pls tell wat am i to u some1 who lent u money? is it tell me i am nt printing money u noe i have to work very hard to earn money then you juz cum and ask me to lent u money why is it so when i ask u whether i can go out with u you juz say you not free or u cant go out why is it WHY!
do you noe tat they havent pay me yet if they nvr pay me then wat will i eat if i help u pay ur bills tell me this is the second time i pay for u and i am not ur bf o ur family member i am juz a guy that u treated me lik an ATM tell me why. for the past few years i have been pay for some1 which i hope i can be her bf but ended up they juz throw me 1 side and when they needed money they juz come to me pretend they are my friends. i dont want tat kind of friends i juz want some1 that i can really do my best to love her not give her money to spent or help her pay her bills love isnt to pay for her bills or other things love is to help each other is problems solve their problems .
but why all their problems is money why so if u really wan some1 to pay for ur bills then you go find some1 who is rich. i am not rich i comes in a poor family which my father is retireded and all my house bills is paied by my working whole day even weekends mother thats why i work hard so that i wont depand on my mother cant u see my problems NO i dont think so coz i nvr let all my friends noe abt my problems i always put a smile in front of every one.
YANTING i think i cant help you in the bills u better find you other male friend or ur best friend for that at least u still go out with them but not me.
i noe if u borrow money from them they will in the future wont go out with you coz they scare u will ask them to lent u money as for me coz u nvr lik to go out with me so u wont have to face me thats why u ask me to lent u money. well i guess im not goi to help u this time u better firnd ur friends for help the 1s ur call it friends not me i noe.

some bad happen

today at abt 12pm after my class as i am abt to go hm my class mate came to me and ask me if he can check my bag. so i ask him why what happen he say he lost his laptop so i let him check then i ask him where he lost it. he say he lost it during the last lesson, he say he got go bck to the classrm where we had our last lesson nad he found that he cant find his laptop and he remember that he got bring his laptop to the class but he 4got to carry it with him after the class.

so i stay with him to find out wherther any one brin the laptop to the head department. at abt 3pm we decided that we go to the police to make report. that's all had that we will hear the gd news tomorrow.

having problems

sian.... my brother has been bugging this computer for 4 straight days and i got no chance of touching it sad...... Nvm nw got the chance well i happy that my friend YanTing has found her other half and make her so happy i read fro blog and i am so happy for her but oso sad coz her other half is nt me.... well Nvm some more i dont have time for her any way and have nothing to talk abt oso.... sunday when i was working my friend ask me not to leave the shoe suffing around on the floor but at the same time as she told me that i was abt to clear those suffing coz i was busy serving the customer.... frm this i start to think that i am having a lot of stress frm work i think that i should quit nt because i cant work is because i am giving myself a lot of pressure i wan to relax go out take a deep breath but i cant find time.....

nxt week is my sch holiday for 1 week but that 1 week i had to study due to that following week is my exams very stress.... even dou it's only 3 paper but i still feel very stressing ... i wan to find my secondary sch friends but well they nt free as usual stay at hm i can get more stress then wan to look for my ex gf then i dont noe where she work.. look for gf then i have noe guts to ask gals.... may be because i get rejected once too many time and then make me like always afraid to ask gals.... hw can i get a gf in the future.... i think nw is nt the time to think abt gf things i must concentrade on my exams specially my maths in the past i lik maths a lot nw due to long time nvr touch maths so a bit rusty...

hw can i get an enjoiable life when all my friends are nt out goin person and i hate to go out alone where i juz walk frm orchard to bugis to suntec to marina square then bck to suntec and bugis then walk bck hm pls dont laugh i really walk all the way bck its true coz im bored and i have no one to talk to or go to so i walk here and there with out taking a bus or mrt and no money to take cab... this is my life a boring life i think i will be lik tis for the rest of my life with nothing interesthing happen and noe nothing ha ha ha........................ :_ [

isee every one out side so happy with their friends or gf and i well alone and dont noe is happy or sad. lot of my friends say having relationship is bad better dont get in to it but if they say that then why they still get into relationship i noe having relationship is hard for me easy for u all and too maintain it evn harder for me coz i had a relationship once and it last me for abt 1 month and we only see each other on weekends and after sch but in total we see each other only 6 times in 1 month then we broke up......so why everyone kepp telling not to have a gf why cant they surpport me lik i surpport them why cant i have a proper relationship where i love her and give everything to her and all i want is her to love me juz 90% can oready like tis oso cant why.... CAN ANY ONE TELL ME i guess surely that no one will even read my blog and no one will even noe that i got blog and im writting my feels in here. they juz think i am a care free person with no problems to face with well they r wrong when they read this.....

what r ur dreams

wat dreams r to be a General manager in 1 of the big company in singapore well its juz a dream wat more do u wan. every year on my birthday i had a wish o maybe a target set 4 myself tat to go japan for holiday by myself and go together with my gf but well i cant save the money n worst cant get a gf sad this yr is goin to end soon and still trying to save the money hope by end of this yr i can manage to save the money if nt i will go manila by myself. actually i got a few gal in my mind if i got the balls i will have the chance to get a gf by this yr is juz tat i scare i nt gd for her cant give her happiness coz i most of the time at home o at work where got time to go out o find her?

Dan ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shui..... tis is a very nice song so dan ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shui for me i think of that gal YT but i think i think og her no use she wont noe even i told her i always think of her she will juz say i think too much or juz give me this dotz thing................ why every time i get in to relationship i wont get it why am i so unlucky in relationship. i wan her to be with me when i needed her why this is so hard for me like this song MY MEMORY i juz wan to love her 4ever and this i cant get

my friend say stop tinking of relationship coz they giv u problems so better nt have 1 but do they noe tat i need some1 to be with me. they say if i wan to go out with then they will go FK them i msg them they say they nt free nxt tiem and then the last time i msg they say again nxt time can. they all juz lik to put nxt time nxt time free then when r they really free i wonder to me r they my friends o they juz treat me lik i m nothing to them. why cant i hav a friend who is very out goin 1 all my friend juz lik to stay at hm o go with gf. why i ask myself many time and still cant get the answer. oh its late i have to stop here so gd nite sweet dreams to u all n to u YT