I have been in love this 1 and half month. I like this girl even through she is older than me but I like her. She is a bit high class as she live in a condo with her parents and a maid, drive 2 cars 1 Mitsubishi Lancer EX, the other one is starts with a P... is a sport car. Can say she quite rich and sporty. As she goes gym doing her work out almost everyday, I like her very much but I'm not sure does she likes me or not even through she goes out with me. But she too has another guy living in Malaysia, Penang that is aftering her too.

We can not say we are a couple even through we got kiss and hug sometimes but she does not feels that we are a couple. I too was confuse whether she likes me or not??

One day as i was chatting with her online i suddenly called her and sang to her, she told me she was touch and she told the other guy that I sang to her. So now is whenever he called her, he will sing to her. I am so angry that i tried my ways to win her but ended up my trick has been copied.

When ever that guy has to go travel to another place in Malaysia he will make a big turn and come here to meet her. They too have kiss when they met, i don't know whether she likes me or liked him. I told her before i don't like my girlfriend to kiss other guys cause this to me is a disrespect to me. I never kiss any other girls when i have a girlfriend, even i don't have i too never kiss.

Yesterday we went to Great World City for our dinner, she was surprise to see me in a bright red t shirt with a cartoon printed on it. She does not like it as makes me look childish, but it's a last minute meet. I normally feeling moody will dress a bit cartoon so to make my mood better. But she don't like it, today she make a comment on my dressing and she told me i should wear polo T shirt and jeans to work, as it should be dress like this at work. But in office i often wear like this as they say we are in production line not sales line so wear something comfortable is okie but not bermudas or shorts. She don't like then she say she was doing all the talking and she busy too but she making the effort to chat with me. I know she is busy as i am too but i didn't chat with her is because i am thinking of how many polo i have in my cupboard.

I am not angry of the comments she made and didn't make her thinks that she is talking to the wall. I know she say this is because she wants me to change, I am willing to change but it takes a bit of time and money. I am too used to cargo pants and shirts, i like jeans but its hard to me to find 1 which is a straight wide cut that i can wear as my tights are quite big, polo t shirts i like too but i like those with zip one instead of buttons.

My mum feels very uncomfortable talking to her as my mum thinks she is quite high class person can't really match our family. I comes in a slightly low income family with ceilings going to give way any moments with leaking pipes under the kitchen basin there. I told my mum that she is not the kind of person who looks down on low income people. But she will feel uncomfortable when going out with her when the dressing she does not like. I can see she does not like the way i dress yesterday as she keeps looking at my shirt. Then this morning keep saying it, now she does not want to talk to me. As i did not reply her.

After I say sorry to her, I kept thinking does she really liked me as she kept saying about I will not impress other girls and ask them to be my girlfriend. This keep making me think she does not treat me as the guy she like, more like her nephew and her little brother.

Holding on a job is hard for me specially I'm trying not to making mistakes but getting into a relationship is even harder for me as I always get rejects and get pour cold water. I am really here to live as a human or is by mistake that I come to this world which actually I shouldn't be living. Will these thinking makes me CRAZY? Or when I am thinking this already AM CRAZY?

I do not want to make the same mistake in my past relationship, that's why I am doing as much as I can to make this good. My friends even are happy to hear that I have a girlfriend or can say that I have someone I liked.