Sigh...! i shot i post 2 星座 for you guys to read.. today is saturday 22/03/08 and well staying at home is not really what i want... but outside raining and dont feeling like cutting my hair or shave... what the heck happen to me?

is not that i dont want to cut my hair is like after cutting my hair where do i go next? Ochard Road to find my friends... This isn't right i feel so empty inside... after scaring off the girl i like (M) which i doesn't mean to and doesn't really know what i am doing... just messaging her good night or some stupid SMS message which i found in one of the web side... Why am I rushing? because i want to let my grandma see that i have a girlfriend that why i rush? Or i wanted to be love?

there is a friend of mine (Lynn) which i know her in the autocad class i just finish... she told me to get any one to pretend that she is my girlfriend and go visit my grandma... i told her i don't like to cheat on my grandma i rather told her i don't have a girlfriend rather than to get a pretend girlfriend... which i think the female friend also don't liked...

She told me that my look doesn't looked like my age... her meaning is i doesn't look mature enough... to me NO chance of getting one...

People tend to say getting into a relationship is easy but maintaining one is hard... but to me getting into one is hard enough for me...

Tend to let go of her but scare that she left and wants to hold her tight she got scare... I ever once in a relationship but got scare to lose her, once i break up with her and I tends to want her back again...

My life so confusing when comes to relationship... what is the meaning of be hard but gentle