its a very rush and tired day for me as i need to finish up the drawings b4 next friday. and just 1 darwing it took me 4 days to do half way shit still got 1 very big drawing to go argh don't know can make it on time or not @.@

this few days felt very moody as my mind is full of rubbish need to format it b4 i gone crazy... now even worst as i read the blog of the girl i like which i been talking about well she found someone she like... well i don't know what to say sad... i don't know as i kindna lost the feelings i don't know when i shld happym when i shld be sad and when to be angry? i think i lost the touch of feelings a guy who has no feelings is = to a dead guy no different right? it's not about love but is about feelings... as i have lost it and i don't think i would like to find that feeling thing as i a tired from my family problems... in my msn nick i put up " I had to let her go as she has someone in her eyes" well i actually just found out when i accidently read her blog haha busybody right... age gap between me and her to far apart i guess>>> Now for me is just work work work let work control me and not i control work... i became a slave for work... oh i think i gonna be sick tomorrow... everytime i felt sad i sure get sick shit...

Is there a way to frozen my heart so i can be a cold blooded person which had no feelings what so everand just live and waiting to die!!

anyway no one will read this... Money is my boss, i am a slave i will never had a chance to save money to buy a house for melf and my future

One told me never think too far as you will never reach it, must think closer so you can easily reach it and feel it.