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Long time didn’t update my blog… I think about a month or so… have stomachache virus this few weeks. Ever since last week I had this feeling and had been in and out of the clinic twice in a week. Then finding very hard to control my emotions, as I don’t know whether Lynn still like me or not and keep having flash back of my ex girl friend WanYing. Why I keep having these in and out emotions? Quite painful feelings, WanYing I broke up with her is because I have no confidence in myself and keep having these dirty thoughts that’s why I broke up with her, then Lynn is she told me she had feelings for me so I was very happy about it but after she told me she has this incurable disease pass down from her mother then she started to be so cold to me. I was very confuse by her did cried a few times.

I don’t know what happen and what have I been turn into? Become a desperate guy wanting to be love and become a zhai nan 宅男. Sad this means I have no life whatsoever, no choice I think as I wanted to go out most of my friends not free then want to go oversea for some fun like only me the only one wanting to go…. And them well they rather go with their friends then me asking them to go… surely no life type.

一周运势 14th - 21st May

狮子座好运指数：★★★★☆

赚钱的创意与企图心都有，
只不过真要有大笔金钱入袋可能还得等上一阵子，
所幸情人都蛮照顾你的，让你没什么后顾之忧，只要全心冲刺就行。
注意：可以努力練習外語，放膽跟外國人打交道。

处女座好运指数：★★★★☆

虽然工作上的变动与压力都很大，
但脑子转得快会在不断的改变之中激发出不少的赚钱灵感，而且，
你也会因为这些冲击让自己成长不少。

注意：在公務出差或是遠行中，會有邂逅，無論已婚或未婚，在享受浪漫之餘，也要避免縱慾過度帶來的後遺症。。

天秤座好运指数：★★★☆☆

这一周你觉得自己是劲量电池，
浑身是劲。你会拿用不完的精力去帮助人。
但提醒你不要冲得太猛，你在开心之余，
不忘提醒自己不要失态。
注意：必須控制好自己的情緒，焦躁和不耐煩，容易跟另一半起衝突，家庭生活受到衝擊，心情好似洗三溫暖。

天蝎座好运指数：★★★☆☆

心思活络灵动，
对什么事都有兴趣，
感觉人生充满希望，
未来光明一片；安排餐叙活动，
可获知一些有利信息；
签署合约时要特别谨慎小心。
注意：本周感情生活複雜，逢場作戲的機會多, 是磨練自己應變及協調能力來解決問題的好機會。

射手座好运指数：★★★☆☆

社交生活比较活跃，
正好也颇符合射手们爱交朋友的个性，
而在参与这些活动中，
你可以找到一些财务上的贵人或是新的工作搭档。

注意：適合幫他人提供理財的服務賺取勞務報酬，你也能從國外友人處搜集到不少賺錢情報，長輩也會留給你不少的財富，但是賺得容易，你也會因自己的嗜好或在情人面前充場面而無法控制預算。

摩羯座好运指数：★★★☆☆

财务运势不错，
但花钱要有节制，
务实的理财态度会使存折簿上的数字逐渐增加，
当然，你也会有来自家庭或情人的压力，
得要费一番心思去处理，整体而言，
爱情运势算是不错的。

注意：極欲有一番作為與表現，會有點身不由己的感覺，很多事務都得仰賴他人的奧援與支持!

水瓶座好运指数：★★☆☆☆

若想要找到投资你的人，
可以拟定一些可行的方案，
说不定在社交活动中可以遇见欣赏你、愿意赞助你的伙伴。

注意：諸事順遂，感情運特佳，有不少邂逅的機會，只不過，你並不一定會有長期耕耘的打算，也許是個快樂浪漫的一周而已。

双鱼座好运指数：★★★☆☆

你和朋友在电话中聊得开心，
但接下来似乎剃头担子一头热，
只有自己仍兴致浓厚。每个人的精力都有消有长，
跟着自己的感觉走就好。周末旅游时，福星高照，你可能会遇到改变你一生的人。

注意：伴侶、家人或是長輩都會給你提供金援，量入為出，不宜投機理財。

白羊座好运指数：★★☆☆☆

會因工作上的接觸而與你仰慕的長官、
夥伴或是客戶擦撞出愛的火花，也許是速食的愛情，
也許你是因為懷抱著感恩的心去經營感情，
總之，要弄清楚你心裡真正想要的是什麼，不必輕易承諾讓自己可能後悔的決定。

注意：在工作上可能无法靠自己一个人就有作为，而是要靠跟伙伴有良好的互动才行，你只要抓得住重点，不一定要亲力亲为。

金牛座好运指数：★★★☆☆

本周你很想买一件价格不菲的东西，
但刷卡前，务必先了解自己的财务状况。
你会很惊讶地发现，你其实已买了很多不必要的东西，
花掉很多钱。你从梦中惊醒，开始检讨自己的价值观与理财之道。

注意：要克服感情上的障礙，最好是收拾起玩心，努力以赴就可以有好结果！

双子座好运指数：★★★☆☆

爱神紧紧跟随，坏事不上身，好运跟着来，
心情得到极大的满足；不要寄望投资赚钱，
无论旁人如何劝说都要忍得住；情绪因情人而有波动，但很快就会平息。

注意：良好的判斷力，使你在執行任務或是與人溝通談判時，都能夠如願的達到目的!

巨蟹座好运指数：★★☆☆☆

巨蟹们依然忙得团团转，不过，
你关人情人的情感也同样能获得来自亲朋好友的支持与鼓励，
使你在精神上不致孤寂，也能自我督促。

注意：會意外接到一些訂單，之前的股票或海外投資也有機會獲利，趁此機會做好你下一波的理財計劃。

(Information taken from http://blog.sina.com.cn/s/blog_4759de44010093yt.html)

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My Bucket List

1. Travel to the Bermuda Triangle
2. Getting the girl that I love to say “I have feelings for you”
3. Giving my Family a better place to stay
4. Sky diving
5. Taste the ice from Mt Fuji
6. Hug the girl that I love
7. Learn how to slow dance
8. Having a slow dance with the girl I love
9. Not to be alone before I die
10. XXX

I will continue to update this Bucket List when I came across something I want to do in my mind.


What is a Bucket List?
Bucket List is the list things you wanted to do before you Kick the Bucket meaning when you die…

Why I wanted to write my Bucket List well so I can plan to do the things I wanted before I die…

Why suddenly thinking of writing it?
Last night I watched the movie the Bucket List starring Morgen Freemen and Jack --- forget his last name… Then sudden things came to my mind… Everyone don’t know when they will die or how soon…. Maybe today you happily walking up the stairs or romantically kissing your lover then suddenly just drop dead… so I was thinking of writing it so if I know when I going to die I will use the list and do what I have wrote and then I can die peacefully…

In this world there are many types of character/personality in a person, in many person…. You can see those happy person living a happy live suddenly doctor say you only have a few years to live or you can only live up to a certain age… then these person will change it’s characters from happy person to given up life and hope person….

Then some of them will like went drinking and getting drunk, if not will be hide himself or totally confine himself… If the person is quite young then I think the person will stop enjoying life and do things that he/she likes to do… some will work their live out so that they will leave the money to the family… or spend on things they want to buy….

Some even lock themselves up to prevent them and the one they love get hurt… and some don’t even dare to love somebody or to be love by somebody…

I pity them as why can’t they live their live like a normal person will live… if you want to be love then find someone that will love you… if you want to love somebody then go find that person… if you want to travel to some places go save up the money and go to the place you wanted to go… Do the things that you wanted to do so that when you die you can die happily… That’s what I think and will do if I know I’m dieing, it’s not a big deal everyone have to come to this point some how… In every part life, even in projects you do or things, there is a start and an end to it… So why can’t we look it as a happy way it’s also a part of life and a lesson of life… Don’t think about where you will be going after life as there isn’t anywhere you will be heading as your destiny is written before you are born…
I wanted to be love and to love someone but my destiny wrote it couldn’t be happen to me but only for a very short while like a 2 months back ba… this girl I met her in my night class I told her I like to be with her as there is some kind of feelings I felt when I was with her… she told me the same thing at first I was very happy that I found the girl who has feelings for me but only for a short while she told me she got this illness which she couldn’t pass through the age of 35… and asked me if I don’t mind been with her even she has this illness… I told her I don’t mind as all I want is now, cherish the time been together, at least when she pass away she had a very happy 35 years of life and a few years of happy days with me in her 35 years… that’s all I care about… but it doesn’t happen the way I think… after she told me her illness she told me not to love her can be friends but not lovers… I heard that I was deeply hurt.. hurt so deep that tears coming out from my eyes which I didn’t even know till my friends told me that I’m crying… She and I had a few quarrels over this matters and in the end I pretend that I have given up on her but secretly I still deeply in love with her… just trying to control my emotions to her so that not too obvious… I still wanted to ask her out every times when she has the time I will try to ask her out either for dinner or just her house that chit chat… well that all I can say as my tears are dropping out again… don’t want to let me friends in the office know I in tears again

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Today is the day I left this world and head to the other side where my grandfather and my aunt are waiting….

What will you do if you know you left 3 days to live?

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Or should I say how you going to spend the last 3 days of your live?



For me I won’t inform anyone that I left 3 days, I will just be a normal guy living normally and been reject by everyone who I asked to go out with me…. This is quite normal in my daily routine; try not to be alone every time I go out. But this kind of loneliness often happens to me; I should get use to it long ago but how come this kind of loneliness I still can’t get over with.

I must get use to it before I fly over to Japan for 1 year training alone. If not I think I will be crazy soon ba haha or keep talking to myself haha…

Last Wednesday I had some fun with my Takashimaya friends we went to Marina Square for some BBQ and DIY ice cream at Yaki Yaki restaurant… before that we were playing pool at the bowling ally there then we went to the restaurant… we had a lot of fun Mishelle had the most fun where she tried fried an egg no is 3 eggs haha… Ben, Jasper, Mishelle and I share the 3-scrambled egg… then after that we went on with the DIY ice cream. The four of us only me know how to freeze the ice cream so I teach them and boy that was fun when come to Mishelle’s turn. Actually that day not only the four of us still got Bevelyn, Ah bee, William, Alvin and Serina. They sat on the next table while the four of us on the other table… That day Mishelle was quite careless as she spilled her glass of soft drink onto her dress and stockings making her sitting area there very dirty and wet I pass her a box of tissue to clean herself while the rest was busy eating… they like heck care of her… I was the only one who is helping her clear the wet area while she cleans her sit and her dress… haha quite embarrassing to her but well no one knows as her dress was black and the drink didn’t spilled onto her shirt which was red…. Haha after dinner everyone went home left only me and Alvin we went to Ang Mo Kio S11 there drink coffee… till his last bus arrived then I went home…