So sian as these few days raining and raining, hope on the 20th Dec there is sun shine and no rain for the whole day and whole night as I have BBQ to go to. Then hope that day I be able to rent a car to drive which I got 1 time found in the internet which just $35 a day then like this I can rent for 2 day Thursday and Friday.

These few days I also didn’t go gym or swimming as heavy rain with strong wind very hard to leave my house.

last friday i met up with some of my friends for a movie and at the same time ask them whose going to the BBQ. While we were at the coffee shop chatting the girl i like called one of my guy friend who he knew her talking about her new hair cut... then my friend suddenly pass me his phone saying that she wants to talk to me. As I answered the phone, she just say "WHAT!" loudly meaning she doesn't really wants to chat with me. so I pass the phone back to my friend and he continue chat with her while I was maintaining my smile and my heart is like breaking into pieces. i felt pain in my heart at the same time i tell myself that this isn't my first time feeling this. So I should be able to handle this kind of pain, but the feelings I can't hide just only pretend that nothing had happen

Why am I so good at hidding my feelings? So good enough that I can imagine i getting either the best actor award, golden horse award or Oscar award. haha