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2day I went Bedok to find my best friend Jiahe to borrow a volley ball from him so tomorrow I can bring to Sentosa to play but since the sky don’t give me the luck to go then its ok I still plan to go Vivo city to explore. My entire classmate most of them never been there so I plan that will be our 1st meeting point.

After taking the volley ball from Jiahe I went to Bedok MRT to meet my god sister to talk about my insurance policy. After talked finish we went to city hall where I planning to go find shiling at Funan. But ended up she not feeling well so she went home quite early so I have to go Lai Cheng. I went there just in time where he is about to go for his lunch break so I went with him, but suddenly talk about our friend who he being resign from so bad things that he have done which he stole almost $6000 in just 3 months woa.

I was surprise because to me he is an honest guy how come he ended up like this. It is a very thing… Never mind but there is 1 worst thing is those guys he is working with get investigated and the in charge get demoted very sad they were the ones who help the investigations and it ended up get demoted what the fuck is the company doing. Company should thanks them for helping but why they ended up becoming is their mistake what the fuck is his company doing. Not even a thank you this company I better don’t want to work in next time nope is never will want to work in that COMPANY…. This ends my topic for today if u wan to know company he is working at well its confidential sorry

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I HATE CHRISTMAS I HATE IT HATE IT VERY MUCH!!!

This afternoon was a very busy 1 because everyone was buying things and exchanging things too. In just this few hours from 1pm to 7pm a few things happens that 1 of the incident makes me very angry and hate Christmas is an old man who is with 2 Filipino ladies went to the shop to buy a slipper he didn’t asked how much is the slipper but he saw a signage which is meant for lady slipper of $ 18. so he though that the price for the man slipper is $18 then he found the size he wants and pay for it me and my friends didn’t notice he as because we were busy so he went to the casher and pay $20 but he was surprise that it was $30 but he did buy it.

When I had finish serving a customer I went to the main door and I saw that old man so I ask him how I could help him. He asked why the price of the slipper is is different from the signage I told him that the price of $18 is for ladies slipper and the guy’s slipper is $30. He got so angry that he throws the slipper that he brought on the floor and started scolding me everyone outside is looking at me well at that time I had no feelings of being angry but felt very funny as I saw an old monkey making himself like a clown haha. He requested to talk to my manager for cheating his money. And he is about to have a fight with me as I looked at him like what so funny look. As he is about to come towards me his two other female Filipino pulled him away. That old man is a Singaporean I think tonight he will ONS with the two ladies haha old man don’t know he can take it or not haha…

But anyway its not my fault nor my friends working in that shop’s fault he was the one who never ask for the price so he should me blamed for these small matters... plus it’s a small matter why have to big it so big if he say we are cheating him money the what about the ladies he is bringing them out. I think he have to pay for their food, drinks and other things so this money of the slipper should be nothing for him what why have to create a scene at our shop Stupid right?

If he consents about his money then he should use that money for his family rather than flirting around right? Stupid old man if I got the death note book and eyes I think he will be dead by now haha…

2nd big incident is we used up all the $2 and $5 plus almost all the customers are paying by cash why huh really very strange leh normal days and weekends they pay mostly by cards but why today they pay by cash very strange…

3rd and last is my Operation Manager brought us pizza for us to eat but there is a catch she want us to thank her for the pizza WHAT THE F#$%!! If she really meant to buy for us to eat she shouldn’t had message us this kind of message. This means that she wants us to thank her that made her happy then I rather not eat same goes for my friends haha… this is the 1st time I saw someone like this same goes for the old “monkey” that I talked about earlier… that is the incident happen to me today….

CAN DON’T NEED TO READ THIS AS THIS IS JUST SOME FLASH BACK I HAD ALL THE TIME…

Flash back again today while serving customers… I think it’s because Wanying finally message me merry Christmas. But when I message her whether she is free tomorrow or Thursday she didn’t reply me does that mean she still remember how I break her heart? I guess I really hurt her that much and that deep I know not even a SORRY can bring back our memory well I don’t think we have a very good memory back then when we are together right? And you still trying your best to continue this relationship but I ended quite fast. I have told her why I break up with her. Only one of my friends knows why I break up with her.

My friend is a she and she told me I am stupid to break up with her because of this stupid reason. How can I do I got scare because I kept thinking about it that is why I suddenly lost me confident. And I told Wanying the reason was 6 months later which I took my courage to email her. I wanted to patch back but she didn’t want to as she told me that our thinking is different. Everyone thinking is different there is seldom people with the same thinking. If there is people with the same thinking then the relationship sure won’t last long as they will not have much things to talk about and do as they know each other too well AM I RIGHT? But I felt stupid keep telling myself she will accept me but when I message she won’t reply me. As my friend say if she doesn’t reply you that means she doesn’t want to patch back nor been together with me again as friend. Is Wanying this kind of girl? To me no I don’t think she is this kind of girl I think she is just too busy with her new friends, school work and CCA. Plus her room mate told me there is a guy who liked her maybe now Wanying is together with that guy having a god time better than with me.

I don’t want to be like Tony who his body lanuague can scare a girl away nor keep myself away from girls it makes me felt like I am going to become a gay eeeyak Sorry huh Tony no hard feelings ok. Shawn told me to take it slowly as I haven’t really came to the working life yet and told me to take my pace slowly because the more I rush into relationship the more I won’t get it so I have to learn to slow down plus learn how to let go of the past to move on. Hope the next relationship is the last, I don’t want to go too slow too as I don’t want to ended up like my father who he has his 1st child which is me at the age of 35 so I wish at the age of 30 I would have my 1st child and the 2nd at 31 or 32 that would be good.

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2 days to Xmas and 1 and half weeks to New Year, today after work I saw my friend Weiling who she was use to work at taka corner last year before she resign and move to Marina Walk there to work in a candy shop. She was together with her boyfriend, both boarding the same bus 132 as me at Lido there she was sitting next to me at the last bench with her boyfriend but she never introduce to me her boyfriend as they sit chit chatting with each other so I leave them alone as I don’t want to disturb them loving each other. I envy them as her boyfriend keeps touching her tight. Don’t get me is not I want to touch her tight too. But because I don’t really have to chance to touch my girlfriends tight as my ex girlfriend don’t like to wear skirts haha. I do touch their tights but not bare ones cause they wear jeans even if I ask them to wear once in a while they still don’t want to.

Anyway I wonder if a guy touches the girls inner tight what will the girl think? Will she thinks that the guys wanted to have sex when they touch the inner tight of a girl? To me well nope because I always like to feel the softness of the girls should I say my girlfriend skin? So this question I would like to ask the girl out there what will they think when their boyfriend touches your outer and inner tight?


Flash back flash back and more flash back why am I keeps getting flash back from my recent ex girlfriend. Does it telling me to go back to her but 1 thing is she wont want to patch back cause she don’t even reply me any message including sms. I am hopeless I think haha…

finally i finish my common test feel soo good. now can rest for a while haha...

i now making a lot of plans for the 2 weeks rest like work throughout the 1 week then maybe go chong at MOS or dragonfly in X'mas eve. then the 2nd week go sentosa maybe for 2 day s to get a tan haha.. 1st day will be my classmates then 2nd is with my work friends haha muz make good use of it if not it will be goin to waste. so ya and go JB but not confrim with who still thinking haha.. hope this 2 weeks break will have a lot of fun....
how are you guys planning for ur holidays and X'mas? hehe let me know ok? hehe i wan to be a bit kay po.....

sian Maggie and Shumei now going to Dragonfly at ViVo City to enjoy and i can't go coz....... i no..... money and no car to drive there ..... nvm nxt week i will go together with more friends coz they last mine jor so i think not much ppl will go then i make sure to ask everyone early to go hahaha...

11/12/06

Today it was quite a sad day as I sat for my EID common test and I don’t do very well. But I won’t give up as I still have 3 more paper to go so the rest I must do well. Haha 1 more months to go and my best friend getting marry and I am his best man so happy but I don’t think I can drink woa next day sure kanna headache 1 how. I think I should me taking 2 day off scare next day cannot work.

This few weeks I keep having flash back about me and Wan Ying having those times. But why? I am trying my best to forget her as I think she has forgotten about me le. Where she is busy with her CCA and school project plus her friends or maybe her new boyfriend? I don’t know whether should I message her see if she is fine or not and see how’s she is doing now I wonder? I wan to move on but why this flash back keep finding me is it that I still love her or because I felt guilty as I hurt her a lot.

I know I won’t give a girl happiness as I am the guy who don’t really know how the girl think? I really wan to have 1 permanent girlfriend who I will spend the rest of my life with her as my wife. But at the moment I need to concentrate on my studies and my work earning money is the 1st priories the rest I think it will come out naturally I think haha good night. Miss you wanying

PROBLEMS MONEY PROBLEMS so many problems happen all of a sudden how can i cope with it. my mum and i was the only pillar who is supporting the family what happen if my mum gone to the other world. how could i do to support the family am i going to give up my future just for the sake my family?

when i start thinking of this problems my tears started to drop. why my family is like that why can i have a family who willing to help to solve problems? my brother and my father have the same characters my father doesn't want to work because he is tire of it and want to relax but if want to relax must think how to save money as our family have money problems then come to my brother who has a lot of time at home and spent like 3 to 4 days in school why cant he spent the rest of the day not in school working part time to help support a bit of the family why he just keep spent the time playing computer games . i cried in the bus where i noe i will be crying i sat at the last sit. so that no one will noe that i am crying. then a thinking came to my mind which is what if i kill myself will the insurance that i have willing to pay the policy money to my family so that the money is enough to cover most or the things. well it does pay for the moeny if a person dies. the thing is will i have the couage to kill myself? that is the question?

but if i die my mom will bare the pain most and have to bare the heavy stone of the family. then i am useless my best friend will looked down on me because i kill myself due to this little thing.

i want to be like anyone else have a happy family, have time going out, have time to go find a girlfriend / wife. i dont want to spent all my time working like a slaves to money. i want the money to be the one growing not i keep increasing the time of work.