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Today didn’t go gym as I was tired and a bit lazy hehe but tomorrow will really go. Last Sunday I met up with Jiahe and his wife for dinner and movie, we met at china town point as I was looking for some anime figure as my birthday present but ended up leaving that place empty handed.

Then we went to Suntec city for dinner at swendson while waiting for our meal to come Jiahe ask me 2 questions which I don’t know how to answer him. First question is: what is my birthday wish? Second question is: When will the seat next to me be sited by a special someone? This two questions I don’t know how to answer him, the answer for the first question well my wish never come true for the past 2 birthdays after my last girlfriend. Then the answer for the second question is my birthday wish never came true so how can there be anyone sitting beside me. Don’t know these answers can be answered to his questions.

After I pay for the dinner I went to buy 3 tickets for the movie Harry Potter and the order of the phoenix. Then met them again and went to Millien walk to check out the laptops and the plastic figures at Hobby point. At about 7:15pm we went back to Suntec to watch the movie, the whole show ended at 9:45pm we left Suntec and headed home. At the way home Jiahe was driving and also talking to his wife while I was thinking of the questions Jiahe had asked. When will I find that special someone of mine? How come I see others getting their girlfriend are so easy and for me are so difficult or can say impossible. I told myself this “I have no love nor there isn’t anyone out there for me to love or be love” every time I think of it. I think it is the best way to stop me from thinking it and get upset with it I rather die to be happy then to be sad. As long as the friends who I have known, who know me or who has forgotten about me are happy then I am happy.

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Yesterday was my birthday yappy but the whole day was alone spending the whole day taking picture from orchard to the durian shell there I don’t know how to spell hehe. Didn’t really eat anything the whole day accept dinner as I planning to have a heavy dinner but like everyone not free so all the way alone. Don’t know what to type as I all the way alone the whole day didn’t think much. If u wan to know you can check on my friendster photo album I now uploading it. Check it out if you not bored to sleep hehe

http://www.friendster.com/3654365

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Sat at 9am I went to Yeo Chu Kang sport complex to do gym for some sweating and building muscles. Finish the whole gym thing at about 11+ then walk home and bath as later I need to cut my hair and meet my classmates for movies the Transformers so I left my house at 1230pm reach bugis at 1pm and went straight for my hair cut 130pm I finish my hair cut looks ok but looked a bit like my brother’s hair styles well ok only…. After that I went to bugis junctions take my time as my friend they won’t reach bugis junctions at 2pm so I walked around looking at girls and clothing for myself as my birthday is around the corner.

At 215pm my friends came accept 1 who has to take a bit longer as he just got injure himself during a basketball game I think so we brought the tickets showing at 4pm in the mean time we walk around again then we went to pray as there is a famous temple nearby with a lot of people going. After pray we went back to find a place to sit and wait for that injure friend to come, When my that injure friend came its about time to go in for the movie. Before that 2 of my friends went to buy drinks then we went in to be seated but there was a small accident as I accidentally bang onto my friend who is carrying his drinks and drop his drink which nearly splash onto a girl lucky jus a few drops touch her leg but the whole drink was wasted. It was my fault which I should have avoided I should have taken good care of my eyes as I now have night blindness was I hardly see with my eyes with in a little bit of light. Hope I won’t turn blind because of this, after the show we went to eat steamboat behind bugis junction.

The food there is well not bad; customer service good can improve overall good. So everyone eats and jokes around till 10pm+ then we went Party World for some KTV. We took a cab there, luckily when we reach just nice there was a big room for us 8 people to go but the charges was woa expensive total $230 with 10 drinks.

So some of us started singing their own songs as the rest who doesn’t wants to sing play a game of dice. For me I do both sing and play dice, but mostly will be sitting there laughing and thinking of someone (my ex-girlfriend) all the while in that KTV room I was thinking of her missing her so much that all the songs I choose was missing her, all the sad songs. After a couple of songs I have the vomiting feelings so I went toilet to relief it twice don’t know why maybe because I ate too much steamboat. Then after the 4 hours of singing everyone went home each took their own cab home including me I reach home about 410am, now is 5am in the morning after my bath and typing this blog of mine at the same time thinking of my ex-girl of how much I regarded how I wish I can turn back the time and undo the things I have say and done to make it right. Well it’s impossible now, no matter how much I wanted her to patch back with me she still won’t want to patch. As what 1 of my female friend’s say she maybe not my cup of tea? What so if she is not my cup of tea I can change my taste to suit her right. In relationship each other must do the part to suit each other so I will if she willing to give me a 2nd chance. I will do it to prove that the same guy won’t let her disappointed again. How I wish she will read this blog and willing to give me a chance to prove to her that I can change for her and reply me that she willing to give that 2nd chance to me to prove that the chance she had given me is the right choice…

5 more days to my birthday and yet I still don’t know where to go as I will be alone once more after I broke up with her2 years back I think I will still go to where that time the place we had our breakfast then the movie and the place where we had our 1st kiss.

These few days I have been trying to find someone that I like to go out with on my birthday but I guess my plans need to change as I can’t find anyone who willing to go. Well the plans for that day wake up in the morning go gym for 2 sets of training then go suntan, after that I go home change and head out again with my camera. Taking picture everywhere I go then taka finds them for lunch.

After that heading to Suntec continues to take picture I think this will take the whole birthday. What a boring birthday right? At night meet my only best friend for almost 10 years who the only one knows my birthday and this will ends my birthday really sad day.


Ask u what makes a good boyfriend/girlfriend? How can I do it?

Well now I have no one to love I may as well love myself more by training myself. Making myself more tried so I won’t think too much…

Why am I keeping trying my best to get a girlfriend?

Because I was tired of been lonely and don’t really want to disturb my best friend much as he has a wife his parents to take care of plus he has a lot of things needed to be taken care of so try not to disturb them much. Friend well they are mostly either busy with work, relationship or just want to stay at home. My family all quite busy working, so that is why I wanted to find a girlfriend and not just any how find but really looking for my future.