9/29/05

sigh...... why everyone is into gambling, normal type of gamble lik e 4D, lucky draw this type of things i am sick of it for fun yes but why have to really into this things take my father instead he nw retrieded ok. i am my mum asked him to work part time but he dont want if we keep asking him then he give us the face so we dont force him.

but he now really into 4D and lucky draws that make me sick. in 4D he can buy up to $100 yes u can sae its a bit liitle but juz for 1 day $100 is too much some more my family nw onli can rely on my mum working i onli work part itme cant earn much even i planning to save money for myself to buy a hse in the future but in my CPF i cant see any money the amount is too very too small juz lik u are finding a seame seed in a pail full of rice. then cum to lucky draw he always ask me to help him do all the quiz in the lucky draw and then he puts his name wel a few times its ok but keep giving me so many lucky draw quiz for my to compelet* he nvr ask my brother to do but onli me why i am sick of it liao. then juz nw today b4 my dinner my father ask me to use my hp to enter in a lucky draw which i have to pay $0.20 for each msg ya 1 msg is ok but he will ask me to sent everyday 1 msg starting from my father to my grandmother. my family 4 person + my grand mother is 5 then add together is $1 and then the bills cum i pay myself i ask him to get a line instead of topup card sigh.. he dont wantmy whole family onli me are using normal line the rest using topup cards.

i n my mum are very stress up with my father liao the older he gets the crazier he gets and the more he will be in the lucky draws and 4Ds hw can i make he learn to control himself its juz a game dont put to much time into it if he got so much time why cant he find a part time job to do a simple 1 will do why cant he do it at least he can help a little in our family finanal* problems... i think some day my mum will leave him if my mum leaves i will too coz he nvr learn he has stop learning well as for my mum she keep learning and i too wan to learn as much as i can go i dont wan to be like my father....i think my life will get very short if i keep sighing like tis....


HELP ? will there be any one help me in my finanal needs? o will anyone give me a job with a very high pay eoungh for my to support my famil y inclubing of buying my own hse? is there?

9/4/05

i dont noe wat has happen to me i felt that i have change to a person i dont even even noe. why is chinese ppl so supersitous i noe i tis yr cant do a lot of things but even cant go visit my friends new born baby this kind of things oso cant meh. i noe it brings bad luck but i just want to make myself happy thats all why cant i go.

ppl has girlfriend i oso has ppl's girlfriends trust their boyfriends why mine dont trust me why i only wan to give her a surprise on her brithday that day but why cant she trust me i told her i will tell her everythigns on that day but why cant she believes in me.

she's goin overseas in sept 19 to 21 why she now then tell me she oready settle everything with her friends then she tells me why cant she discuss with me 1st. she told me that i nvr treat her as my gf but did she?

Got 1 sunday i told myself not to msg her see weather she will msg me bck ont but no the whole day she didnt even msg me. i told myself maybe bcoz she is busy that day. so i nxt day oso nvr msg her to try again she will msg bck ont but dont have. so i ask my friends if a guy oways msg her gf and got 1 time he nvr msg her, will she msg him and find out wats wrong? most of my friends sae yes they will msg bck to ask wat happen why didnt he msg bck this kind of things.

i dont noe weather she treats me as her bf a wat? i dont noe now i only thing i must do is do my best in my exams i must pass and get a better grades i dont want to disappoint myself again i dont care if my gf still angry with me but i MUST PASS no matter wat it cost....
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

9/3/05

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