these few day i kept dreaming of my ex stead dont noe why i kept dreaming abt her i shld have forgotten her but why these few days i kept dreaming of her. i noe its impossible for us to patch bck frm what i have done to her and i also cant forgive abt myself for doin these thing to her till now i am scare of hurting another girl i want to have a relationship but at the same time i am scare..

jia he wan me to be happy he always ask to find a girlfriend so that i wouldnt be lonely i noe he wans me to be happy but i cant i am scare unless these is a girl who is willing to accept me and willing to help me to change my habits but ha ha ha... there isnt any girl willing to do so the 1st impression i give them will scare them away... ha ha ha so i dont think i can get a girlfriend o a wife before the age of 30....

is not that i dont wan to change is that i cant do it on my own i must have someone who i love to help me and willing to accept me as what i am then i will do my best to change for her.. i dont wan to have someone willing to be my girlfriend juz to pitty me... i dont like